Why no? Why now?

Hey everyone! Welcome to my blog. I'm no good at writing introductions, or at least I never was in high school but I'm going to give it a shot here.

Obviously the title is a bit funny, let me explain.
I am your typical young actress. I studied at a conservatory for 2 years. I live in New York City. I wait tables and I'm constantly auditioning for productions.
Now I know what you're thinking, there's a million of us out there, what makes my story so special?! I'll tell you what! I'm talented! Just kidding, I mean I am talented, but EVERYONE is and that's not an exaggeration.
This city is thriving with amazingly talented singers, actors and dancers. It is the mecca of Broadway after all, so it is very easy to feel lost and hopeless with this much competition.
Anyway I digress a little.

It has been 1 year and 8 months since I graduated from the American Musical and Dramatic Academy and I have been auditioning since. Granted, I had a few set backs last year and I went into an audition hiatus for 2 months this year, but all in all I have been a constant auditionee pounding the pavement.

This idea occurred to me last night when I was thinking about my future memoirs and if I ever write one, I need to start writing things down now since my memory is so terrible. I then thought I should put up a list on my wall and write down every single audition I go to and what the response it. Then I figured in a year, five or maybe in 10( Lord help me) when I finally begin to book work I could symbolically rip that list to shreds knowing its what everyone goes through, some longer than others.

Now here we are, almost 2 years later with an unending list of 'No's' and almost 'Yes' which has driven me to bug all of you.

To my fellow actors who may be reading this I hope you don't have to create a never-ending list of 'no' blog,  but I do hope you can learn from what I have to say. Maybe it will offer you some audition insight and if not, maybe you can offer me support obviously I need it. ;P
To the rest of you, sit back, relax and enjoy the journey and hopefully we can turn my never-ending 'no' story into a Yes.

Ever hopeful,
Jillian